Friday, 23 December 2011

When I grow up I want to be an Astronaught

When I grow up I just want to roll
From one Experience to the next without having a Goal

When I grow up I just want to evolve into a person not defined just by their job or their role.
When I grow up I want to sell drugs on the side and never get caught

When I grow up I want to be an Astronaut with a lot of Good friends and a family to support
When I grow up I want to be an Astronaut with no friends other than the tv I bought

When I grow up I want to be an Astronaut, anything after that is an after though

Now just because I did not become an Astronaut that does not mean I have failed
It simply means the ambitions of a kid at school can be restricted and a little one dimensional
We are encouraged to pick a job in which we seek success instead of thinking about what we really need for happiness so our goal becomes that job title and anything less is defined a failure and that, to me is quite hard to digest.

True happiness does not come from the job you do
When I grow up I just want to Evolve into a person not defined just by their job or their role

No matter what job you choose, it does not change you as a person
When I grow up I want to be an Astronaut
Selling drugs on the side and not getting caught

When I grow up I want to be an Astronaut
Drained of all my life not locking tired and gaunt
We all die

Saturday, 27 August 2011

The day I tried to live (Happy Blog, for once_

I'm sick of starting with ("I havent blogged in a while") so lets just get into this shall we?

Well Bloggers, after being the most useless bastard for more than a year now. I did it, I am doing something with my life

I am going to Belfast to do a Foundation Degree in Games Development. The feeling of self worth is pretty good, if a little daunting

But that leaves the big question, do I regret the past couple of years. In short. No.

One of the reasons is this time off give me time to get my head back together and decide what I wanted to do with my life

Also, i had a fucking blast. But now I shall have a blast, but in Belfast.

Pretty short entry today. Just thought i'd chronicle "The day I tried to live"

Thursday, 23 June 2011

Roger Ebert

It's times like these I wish I was a more popular blogger, because I really would love nothing more than for Roger Ebert to read this.

Ok let's get some things out of the way
  1. I in no way approve of drunk driving
Well yeah. That's about it I think. For anyone who doesn't know, Roger Ebert is a critic and a screenwriter. He battled Cancer and the world would be no worse off if he had of lost. Oh yeah, this blog may be filled with some hate. Why? Because I fucking hate Roger Ebert.

I first heard of him when he said video games can never be art. Then when I was reading reviews of movies I enjoyed that stupid bastards face kept popping up. For example criticising Leon for having a 12 year old Natalie Portman in the middle of an action movie, when that was what the fucking movie was about. It wasn't a pure action movie you stupid fuck. It's point was that Children have no place among action. 

Look at that stupid fuck.

So recently Ebert decided to make a comment about Ryan Dunn's pre mature death. And how it was linked to a Drunk driving. Why did he do this? Why did he go out and make this offensive comment when so many fans across the world were showing nothing but love? The only reason I can think of is extra fame. Followers on Twitter, why else would you make such an out there comment on Twitter?

Which completely contradicts his statement to Charlie Sheen earlier this year. "I could get 2 million followers on twitter but then i'd be a sad lonely loser like Charlie Sheen". Fuck you. First of all Charlie sheen didn't go mental to get followers on twitter, secondly your a hypocritical stupid fuck.

You can't criticize someone elses attempts to get followers on twitter then go and make sick jokes over twitter  and expect not to receive mountains of hate. Now while i'd be lying if I said I don't enjoy sick jokes about nearly everything. I am not Roger Ebert, nor is me laughing at a joke going to directly affect the familys and friends of the person i'm talking about.

I also admit i'm a little biased here due to my love of Ryan Dunn and my hatred of Roger Ebert

R.I.P Ryan Dunn. Even though he's famous for immature antics he was one of my hero's growing up

Fuck you Roger Ebert

Wednesday, 25 May 2011

No, I cannot forgive you yet

I've been naming my blog after lyrics, but the title of this one should be "Drugs", but "I should of known" by Foo Fighters basically sums it up

Now first of all my opinion on drugs. Marijuana is not a drug. No it's not, shut up, nope, no no no. "It's a plant that grows in the dirt, and if you just so happen to set it on fire, there are some effects" - Katt Williams.

But even it has fucked with a few of my friends heads. But nothing too serious, just paranoia, but I still think they're just pretending. Now alot of people can go on about how this is a serious problem. It isn't, no one has ever over dosed on Grass. Have people over dosed on Alcohol? Fuck yes they have. Have medically prescribed drugs ever killed someone? Fuck yes they have.

But that's not what this blog is about, when I say "Drugs" i'm mostly going to be talking about methadrone (Meow meow), (Not Methadone), (This is alot of brackets)

The problem with this drug is it's new, no one knows what the long term effects are. So basically it could just start a timer that after you take it you die 7 days later, to the day. That day Kilkeel will be halfed in population.

But not even long term effects, i'm talking about people I used to be good friends with who have lost their fucking mind. I decided to catch up with one the other week and here's the exact message I recieved

"none of that meth or anything anymore cause it fucked with my head you should see the cut of me im all scrawny and look rotten and ive ot white hair now i turned into a chav cause of all them drugs lol minced"

Or from another friend

"Nah bai, I can't really go anywhere anymore, brain is fried can't deal with people"

Both these people were on meth again within a week. What the clean fuck. THAT is a drug. Grass is not. See the difference, slight paranoia to drug debt, change of appearance, loss of friends.

I know it's a long road till grass is made legal, but it at least could not be classified the same as Meth or coke or Heroine.

Shit, that was serious, better add a funny picture


Wednesday, 13 April 2011

As the future repeats itself (Blog from the future)

This is a blog about gaming

Now off to the future

I'm really glad that back in 2011 Eidos (One of my favourite gaming companies) decided to stick firm to only having a single player in Arkham City. It set a trend to other gaming companies to stop taking up so much space on a disk and time developing a shitty online mode they just threw in to give it more appeal to retards.

That's what I hope to be saying. This anger is coming from the news that "Guitar hero and true crime are crime are to be cancelled". Article here

True Crime Hong Kong was a game that seemed to be bringing new game mechanics to a sandbox. Free running, shooting while driving, movie style driving and others. It seemed like a really well put together fun game that I couldn't wait to play. 
Then it was cancelled
Now this was quite an annoying thing to happen, but the thing that really annoys me about this is the following sentence. 

"An Activision press release stated that the cancellation of both True Crime and Guitar Hero was due to "the desire to focus on the greatest opportunities that the company currently has to create the world's best interactive entertainment experiences." Activision will now be focusing -- as if it hadn't already been -- on the Call of Duty franchise"

Call of duty you motherfuckers. 
Fuck Call of duty
It can suck a million dicks for all I care
Online play is not as fun as you might think COD when you don't fucking change anything about it

Don't get me wrong, it's not an awful game. Well, Modern Warfare wasn't an awful game. Fuck Black ops sucked. And so did Modern warfare 2.And don't get me started on World at War

No, the thing that annoys me about this sentence is that they're trying to make people believe they're working on COD to give us the best experience.

NO. That's the opposite, you know you can do fuck all to COD and still make millions, whilst making an actual entertaining game like True crime may be less profitable, which is ok, but stop trying to make yourselves out to be dead on

Generic first person cover based shooters should be banned for a minimum of a year to make way for actually good games

Thank fuck portal 2's out next week

Sunday, 10 April 2011

What a nice long leash, what a nice tight noose. Never worked for me but, sure would look good on you

I hate people
Not all people, I would consider myself to be a person with a large group of friends, I just hate how fucking stupid some people can be.

There's this person, we're going to call it Able
Fuck I hate Able, Able is a twisted fucking asshole that represents everything wrong in people.
I genuinely hope Able dies. Now, Able knows full well that I feel like this. I can't remember why I ever gave Able a chance, but I really regret it.

Now this would be ok, if Able wouldn't stop fucking showing up at everywhere I drink and saying the same stupid fucking phrases
"Can we be friends now?"
"Are we aloud to speak?"
"Are you aloud to speak to me?"
NO. Fuck off. I don't want anything to do with you, when I see you my mood drops.

Ables only an example of a long line of people I fucking despise. I used to be the kind of person that if they didn't like someone they'd be friendly anyway to avoid any sort of conflict.
I take the opposite approach

When I don't like someone, they know it. I find it more, honest. Than going about bitching and moaning about how your friend did this and that. get a new friend and fuck off.

Friday, 11 March 2011

Fight Club/ New Blog

I forgot how much I love the movie Fight Club. Last night me and my friend skeb sat down to watch some Fight Club because he never seen it, and the movie could send someone completely insane. It gives me pretty awesome ideas though

Like for example, if I ever came to the point I was going to kill myself. I could spend my days becoming a serial killer who targets Pedophiles, Rapists, Men who abuse woman and of course, people who own apple macs.

To send out a message, it's not ok to own apple macs, or the rest, and hopefully scare the rest out of there crimes. But that's just a democratic dream. To essentially become a super hero. Which brings me too another movie. Kickass

Kickass was definitely one of my favourite movies of last year if not the best, as well as Book of Eli, Scott Pilgrim and  From Paris with Love. (Note how I didn't say Inception, because it wasn't that god damned good. If you want a complex movie that's actually good, watch the usual suspects). Kickass also sort of played with this idea that anyone could be a super hero.

What i'm trying to say is, if I don't get a job soon i'm going to start murdering some people. And that's why i'm making a seperate blog from this. I really couldn't give this blog a category, it's really just rants, ramblings, ideas and some music. Oh and a review of Oddyssey.

But this blog will just be about how fucking impossible it is to get a job round here. And how much the dole sucks. And the good bits as well like sitting in my garden drinking beer (Got to make the most of it).

Yeah i'm gonna go work on that now